Oh...my...goodness

Lexi is officially 2 months old! We can't believe it. I know this is just the beginning of countless milestones that we won't be able to believe, but 2 months is a big one. I can't believe how much her personality has blossomed. We are lucky to have Lexi as our little girl. The latest milestone- she no longer fits in the sleeper we brought her home in. She is also becoming a pro at smiling, even at mommy and daddy:

We just had a wonderful visit from Jon's parents from Ohio. We didn't do much besides spend time together and take lots of pictures, but I think that was the best thing we could have done. Lexi ate up all the attention from her grandparents. She really became a pro at smiling when she saw them. They said she grew up a little right in front of them. Alyce did a lot of cooking, cleaning, and cookie baking, and I can say she is missed already. She gave me time to spend with Lexi, time to catch up on some things I've wanted to get done, and both she and Cloyce were happy to take on the role of holding a baby girl when that was needed. Jon and his dad installed a light in the laundry room, which has made a huge difference in my ability to see my laundry! It has also illuminated how dusty my laundry room is, so I will be taking care of that soon. I do wish that part of the family was closer. I am going to sign up for email alerts to air fare sales so we can get to Ohio, maybe this year. It is hard for Jon and I to be away from that part of the family, but we are still able to be as close as you can be through love despite distance. Skype helps that too!

I am still very tired all of the time. I look tired in my eyes. I don't know if I will ever get used to getting up a few times a night to feed Lexi. I love that time with her though. It is beautiful to bond with her as I feed her and give her nourishment and love. Breastfeeding is truly one of the most soulful things I've ever experienced.

Lexi was baptized on Sunday. It was important to me to have God's promise of baptism bestowed on her. Jon and I both grew up as Christians, and we can't imagine life without faith.
Here is a pic of her in her cute little dress with her Godmother Jenny.


I am still not completely in the swing of things related to mommyhood. I love every second I spend with Lexi, but I think the way things got started two months ago continues to be hard on me. We had to bring Lexi back to the hospital the day after we were discharged because she wasn't eating. I felt like it was a failure on my part, and I still don't talk about it because I haven't come to terms with it. A day on IV fluids and me working with a lactation consultant, and Lexi went home over a pound heavier than when she arrived. It's difficult for me to be away from Lexi, even for a few minutes, and I think it is because of those events. I am working hard to get over it, but with my anxiety issues, it will take some time.

I am very happy that the weather is BEAUTIFUL, and I would be very happy if spring has sprung early. I'm sure that winter will take at least one last swipe at us, but for now, I will take the sun and almost no coat needed weather.
And some more pics of the beautiful girl.


-Jenni